Hello friends!
Sorry for being absent from both the forum and the group builds but I've just not been in shape.
It all started in early spring when all of a sudden I got a bad migraine. I've had migraine before but perhaps only 3-4 times in my life so I just decided to wait it out. About two weeks later I got the same bl..dy migraine again, and this is how this nightmare started...
In May I started feeling really dizzy quite often and it came and went without warning. I still made excuses why I had my migraines and tried to ignore them as well as I could but I did start to wonder why?
I just couldn't do any scale modelling at all any longer since it was just too hard. Headaches, dizziness and dodgy eyesight isn't exactly helping as you all know.
Early June I was falling over on a regular basis - which isn't great with my spinal injury, and at this time I was struggling with my eyes as well so I decided to tell my doctor about everything.
At first they took the usual tests; infections, allergies, viruses etc but they all came back negative apart from an infection, which couldn't cause any of this. By now I was taking 1-2 test per week to find out what was going on?
Sadly none of the easy and most likely tests provided any answers and now they started with the more serious tests, and I have to admit that I was starting to get a bit worried too because there's one thing having a blasting headache every other week, but being dizzy and falling over almost daily? Well, that's another thing altogether, and by this time my brain felt like it was running too slow and I struggled concentrating and mostly just feeling confused?
Sadly all of the intermediate tests came back negative too and the only tests that showed any sign were blood and liver.
I had, at some point, had a pretty big infection but was coming out of it, but to be sure I was put on a hefty run of antibiotics, just to be sure. My not so great liver values needed further tests and this took a bit of time so it wasn't until early July they ruled the liver out. Why the early tests had been bad they didn't know but they were getting better - and I wasn't - so they decided to look elsewhere.
They were also worried that all of the medicines I've taken since the accident and surgeries had taken their toll on the body, but I couldn't live without them and there'd been zero signs of that prior so it wasn't likely. My liver would be totally shot first if that was the case and my liver was... well, ok-ish now at least...
Sadly this was the time when my doctor had to start thinking about the worst causes - the ones they hadn't tested for yet, ones I was dreading, and he reluctantly said that I needed a cat scan of my brain because there were just too many signs of a brain tumour - and all other tests were negative.
I'd already figured out that this was coming but I had ignored it until now. It's hard enough being the only parent to two autistic teenage boys and me being handicapped as well after a spinal injury - and now the possible risk of having a brain tumour?!
I can admit that it was hard to deal with and I decided to not tell the boys. (in fact I didn't tell anyone just because I didn't want all the questions that would come with it) I'd told them enough during these months to not worry them but to tell them that there was a possibility of dad having a brain tumour? No, not without actually knowing that first! They were worried enough as it was even though I was playing it down. (pretty hard to play down when you fall over in the kitchen in front of them fully sober...)
Sadly there are no drop-in appointments for brain scans, especially not when the big holiday season has started, so I first had to wait for another six weeks to get the cat scan, and then another two weeks for the results being screened. Those two months were some of the hardest one so far - but the results were negative so yet again we were without results! (ok, we had some good results, which I have to say NOT having a brain tumour is
)
In the end we could only wait and see what happened and keep check of my blood values and the rest and slowly the migraines were getting further apart, my dizziness faded away and I no longer had to worry about falling over.
Today I'm feeling much better and I've only had migraine once the last month. My eyes are still tired and I can't focus for long, but at least now I can focus.
Modelling during these months just didn't work, I tried but it just didn't work. I only cracked open a new kit for the first time last week and slowly started looking at the sprues. Reading the instructions. Trying to find all the tools and bits...
I cut the first parts of the sprues this evening and it felt good! Really good! My eyes are much better and I don't get a blasting headache by just concentrating so I hope whatever it was that hit me is now gone?!
Participating in a scale modelling forum when you can't do the hobby you love didn't work for me, hence me being gone.
There's no chance I'll finish my group builds until end of December but I'm ok with it. They're done when they're done - at least my health seems to have recovered and they didn't have to crack open my skull!
So now you know why I disappeared. I've yet to catch up with the forum but after cutting and cementing the first pieces tonight since spring I feel like I'm now ready to get active again!
Cheers,
Jens
Sorry for being absent from both the forum and the group builds but I've just not been in shape.
It all started in early spring when all of a sudden I got a bad migraine. I've had migraine before but perhaps only 3-4 times in my life so I just decided to wait it out. About two weeks later I got the same bl..dy migraine again, and this is how this nightmare started...
In May I started feeling really dizzy quite often and it came and went without warning. I still made excuses why I had my migraines and tried to ignore them as well as I could but I did start to wonder why?
I just couldn't do any scale modelling at all any longer since it was just too hard. Headaches, dizziness and dodgy eyesight isn't exactly helping as you all know.
Early June I was falling over on a regular basis - which isn't great with my spinal injury, and at this time I was struggling with my eyes as well so I decided to tell my doctor about everything.
At first they took the usual tests; infections, allergies, viruses etc but they all came back negative apart from an infection, which couldn't cause any of this. By now I was taking 1-2 test per week to find out what was going on?
Sadly none of the easy and most likely tests provided any answers and now they started with the more serious tests, and I have to admit that I was starting to get a bit worried too because there's one thing having a blasting headache every other week, but being dizzy and falling over almost daily? Well, that's another thing altogether, and by this time my brain felt like it was running too slow and I struggled concentrating and mostly just feeling confused?
Sadly all of the intermediate tests came back negative too and the only tests that showed any sign were blood and liver.
I had, at some point, had a pretty big infection but was coming out of it, but to be sure I was put on a hefty run of antibiotics, just to be sure. My not so great liver values needed further tests and this took a bit of time so it wasn't until early July they ruled the liver out. Why the early tests had been bad they didn't know but they were getting better - and I wasn't - so they decided to look elsewhere.
They were also worried that all of the medicines I've taken since the accident and surgeries had taken their toll on the body, but I couldn't live without them and there'd been zero signs of that prior so it wasn't likely. My liver would be totally shot first if that was the case and my liver was... well, ok-ish now at least...
Sadly this was the time when my doctor had to start thinking about the worst causes - the ones they hadn't tested for yet, ones I was dreading, and he reluctantly said that I needed a cat scan of my brain because there were just too many signs of a brain tumour - and all other tests were negative.
I'd already figured out that this was coming but I had ignored it until now. It's hard enough being the only parent to two autistic teenage boys and me being handicapped as well after a spinal injury - and now the possible risk of having a brain tumour?!
I can admit that it was hard to deal with and I decided to not tell the boys. (in fact I didn't tell anyone just because I didn't want all the questions that would come with it) I'd told them enough during these months to not worry them but to tell them that there was a possibility of dad having a brain tumour? No, not without actually knowing that first! They were worried enough as it was even though I was playing it down. (pretty hard to play down when you fall over in the kitchen in front of them fully sober...)
Sadly there are no drop-in appointments for brain scans, especially not when the big holiday season has started, so I first had to wait for another six weeks to get the cat scan, and then another two weeks for the results being screened. Those two months were some of the hardest one so far - but the results were negative so yet again we were without results! (ok, we had some good results, which I have to say NOT having a brain tumour is
)In the end we could only wait and see what happened and keep check of my blood values and the rest and slowly the migraines were getting further apart, my dizziness faded away and I no longer had to worry about falling over.
Today I'm feeling much better and I've only had migraine once the last month. My eyes are still tired and I can't focus for long, but at least now I can focus.
Modelling during these months just didn't work, I tried but it just didn't work. I only cracked open a new kit for the first time last week and slowly started looking at the sprues. Reading the instructions. Trying to find all the tools and bits...
I cut the first parts of the sprues this evening and it felt good! Really good! My eyes are much better and I don't get a blasting headache by just concentrating so I hope whatever it was that hit me is now gone?!
Participating in a scale modelling forum when you can't do the hobby you love didn't work for me, hence me being gone.
There's no chance I'll finish my group builds until end of December but I'm ok with it. They're done when they're done - at least my health seems to have recovered and they didn't have to crack open my skull!
So now you know why I disappeared. I've yet to catch up with the forum but after cutting and cementing the first pieces tonight since spring I feel like I'm now ready to get active again!
Cheers,
Jens
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